There are two moments in MMA that will forever be seared into my memory. Well, there’s more than two, but I know I’ll always be able to recall back to these specific memories and the minutia of my existence when thinking about the exact moments they happened.
Number one is Werdum defeating Fedor. When it happened, my wife started screaming but all I could do was get up from my chair then silently start doing the dishes. It’s like my brain couldn’t really even comprehend what I just saw. I don’t even like cleaning, but it seemed like the only tangible thing in my life at that moment. Fedor, flopping like a fish between Werdum’s legs, his eventual tap on the Brazilian’s thigh.
It was one of the most disturbing sports moments of my life.
The other was Anderson Silva breaking his leg. I was sitting in my living room in LA with Jessie, my wife, Aubrey Sitterson of Straight Shoot fame and Nick Robertson of Nick Robertson fame. We just knew Anderson was going to destroy Weidman, and when he got worked in the first round, it was starting to sink in. I had felt this felling before, watching BJ Penn for my entire adult existence. Anderson Silva was going to lose. Not only was he going to lose, but he was going to lose two in a row. What?
I didn’t see the Corey Hill leg break live. I’m not particularly squeamish, seeing my fair share of limb breaks, but this…
This was something different. This wasn’t seeing your hero falling, this was seeing your hero shattered into pieces in front of your very eyes. No one in sports deserves to break a limb like that. I felt like I wanted to barf. I felt like I had to see a psychologist.
I can’t fathom what it’s like to be in Anderson’s head, coming back to train after suffering such a horrific injury, and it turns out he’s had a hard time getting over it as well.
“I feel no pain at all. My strength is back because I’m back to training. The hardest part is self-confidence, to kick again as I used to.”
“I’ve worked with a psychologist so I can get rid of the ghosts of those horrible moments of that fight, when I had that accident. I’m a little apprehensive in training. I know I can execute the movement, but I end up not doing it for fear.”
“Yeah, I won’t get hurt. I know I won’t get hurt, but fear is natural. I don’t want to feel that pain ever again. No way.”
“I feel better training in Brazil. And, so I can be at my 100 percent to return to fighting, I’d rather train in Brazil.”