Edgar
Overeem
Evans
Or I'm going to kick in one of Buffalo Wild Wings TV's

Mind is always blown when I see that Rashad KO

This ppv is stacked & Ronda's is next. I'm kind of worried. I'm not doing all that I could as a fan to help. I won't be able to order it because I doubt I'll have a permanent residence & cable or satellite service by then. I mostly just post here on ME & on youtube but how much impact does that have? I'm not sure if my comments even have a net benefit. I have a bunch of ideas that I got from a movie called 'Exit Through The Gift Shop' but I haven't done them yet. I want to post stickers of Ronda everywhere & near the arena. I need a few hundred dollars & a team of Ronda enthusiast but I don't have that yet. I also have ideas from fans of other celebrities like Beliebers(Justi n Bieber fans) & Rihanna Navy(Rihanna fans). I want to make Rowdy Nation a catch phrase that Ronda fans can relate to & feel a sense of community. Time is going by fast but I've yet to make any progress. I'm really disorganized. It's not just that I'm junky but my mind feels cluttered as well. I try to convince myself that I believe in Ronda but if I really believed than why would I feel the need to convince myself? Sure, I get an emotional high from thinking of her but I haven't really changed yet. I mean, I feel different sometimes but then I go right back to how I was. Where's my passion, my fire? I feel like the scene in the movie 'Youth in Revolt' when the girl called the guy & said "don't wait or you'll regret it when I marry a french guy." I'm not going to make a split personality but an alter ego or egos could help. Real life ninjas didn't go around dressed like cartoon ninjas. They dressed like regular people so that they could blend in. Then they did their mission & left before anyone knew they were their. I think that could help me overcome some of my inhibitions. Ronda said she compartmentaliz e things & hyping a fight is almost like a social media game. This weekend when I was on a business trip I tried to look people in the eyes as I lied to them & it made me feel more confident. There's a lot of little things I could do to feel more confident. The last 9-to-5 job was kind of physical. At first I didn't do to good but eventually I got really good at it. I learned from the people around me & adapted what I like about their techniques to my own style. But it wasn't just technique. I had a lot of passion. I didn't care about the job & I knew it wasn't a long term position. I worked hard to prove something to myself. So at a time like now I could look back at then for inspiration. That was before I knew of Ronda but the feeling I had makes me think of an interview when she was talking about getting her elbow popped out by an armbar but she didn't quit. She continued & won the fight. She said not everyone has that mentality like "No! It's not going down like that!" That's how I felt when I pushed myself to my limits. That's the passion that I need to have again.

Aldo's gonna Aldo